What was I thinking?! Wait...Scratch that, I wasn't thinking at all. As "The CP Optimist" I always took pride in looking at life with a smile...and people who know me will tell you, I literally smiled all the time. But one day it seemed to all change in the blink of an eye.
Why? Because I'm human and no matter how happy I really am Cerebral Palsy just sucks sometimes, plain and simple. Pain is like a demon. It will suck the life force out of you until you think you've reached the brink of death.
I thought I lost control and at times, questioned whether I would make it or not. However, when you have friends like Lizz Raffa and Meaghan Goode that question just isn't an option. They are my friends. In fact, they are the two best friends anyone could ask for.
They make me realize that pain is temporary, but a true friendship will last forever. Sometimes, I wonder what I did to deserve these two. I think we are the only three people who always have fun doing nothing.
Maybe, it's because we need nothing but each other. We have have a bond with each other that words can't even describe. Something, that could never be destroyed.
I will always have fights with pain but with Lizz and Meaghan in my corner the fight will be over before it even starts. I seriously don't know what I would do without them!
I would love to go on and on but if I continue, I think the tears streaming down my cheeks are going to ruin my keyboard. Bottom line is, I love you guys. You are the best two people in my life and you will always have a place in my heart. Thanks for everything! You guys are proof that good things come in two! Love you :)
Monday, March 21, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Mo cushla
It's been awhile since you've heard from me. The evidence is clear from the collection of dust on my keyboard. But the person who I'm writing about tonight certainly, without a doubt, clears every spec of dust. I've written about her before. In fact, you may remember her as my guardian angel.
A guardian angel is defined as a being that is assigned to guide and protect a certain person. Lizz Raffa has done just that. She is the one person who can bring you from the brink of destruction and make a person feel like they are larger then life. She is a person who is always honest and will tell it how it is. She is my best friend who I care for more then she can ever imagine.
But recently my guardian angel has been very confused and she realizes she has to make a tough decision in the game of life. I cannot make the decision for her but I certainly can guide and protect her like she's done for me so many times.
Lizz, I want you to remember that you are my heart. When you cry, I cry with you. When you’re happy, I'm happy. And when you need to make a tough decision realize, I may not be there physically but a piece of me will always be with you.
I will always be there to wipe the tears from your face and I will always carry the lessons you've taught me wherever life leads me. When you fall, I'll be there to catch you. (well, at least be able to by you some chocolate doughnut holes) You make everyone a better person for being around you and you need to do what's best for Lizz Raffa and nobody else.
The decision's not easy. In fact, no decision worth anything ever is. But you are my hero a girl who not only plans, but WILL make it far in life. Remember there's no wrong decision, just different consequences with each one. The question is, what consequence best suits you? I will never leave you because you are my Mo cushla, which is gaelic for "my darlin, my blood." I know in my heart that you will be ok. But until then, know that I will be there to catch you.
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A guardian angel is defined as a being that is assigned to guide and protect a certain person. Lizz Raffa has done just that. She is the one person who can bring you from the brink of destruction and make a person feel like they are larger then life. She is a person who is always honest and will tell it how it is. She is my best friend who I care for more then she can ever imagine.
But recently my guardian angel has been very confused and she realizes she has to make a tough decision in the game of life. I cannot make the decision for her but I certainly can guide and protect her like she's done for me so many times.
Lizz, I want you to remember that you are my heart. When you cry, I cry with you. When you’re happy, I'm happy. And when you need to make a tough decision realize, I may not be there physically but a piece of me will always be with you.
I will always be there to wipe the tears from your face and I will always carry the lessons you've taught me wherever life leads me. When you fall, I'll be there to catch you. (well, at least be able to by you some chocolate doughnut holes) You make everyone a better person for being around you and you need to do what's best for Lizz Raffa and nobody else.
The decision's not easy. In fact, no decision worth anything ever is. But you are my hero a girl who not only plans, but WILL make it far in life. Remember there's no wrong decision, just different consequences with each one. The question is, what consequence best suits you? I will never leave you because you are my Mo cushla, which is gaelic for "my darlin, my blood." I know in my heart that you will be ok. But until then, know that I will be there to catch you.
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